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I have two late evening finals scheduled for Friday and Saturday. I am not looking forward to that. Friday is my Six-months-time anniversary and I thought that April 20 was a stat. holiday. Why can’t finals just be during class time? Does anyone really need more than an hour to eek knowledge out of students? I get super restless after about 1.5 hours anything after that and I’m just filling space so I can get a change of scenery. I’m still trying to figure out how I can possibly fill ten minutes talking about my “special project.” I could easily get everything out in three minutes and get everyone an extra seven minutes of sleep. For my special project, I read two books which exhibited distinctly different writing styles. I did this in hopes that broadening my reading repertoire would in turn enhance my writing ability. It did. Okay maybe three minutes is too much time too. I’ll try and expound on that a little. 

0411

What happened this semester? That is what I’ve been wondering all week. I just got in a little too far over my head and everything fell apart – myself included – and now I’m trying to piece things together before I get to finals week. I now know that I can’t work full time and expect to maintain any semblance of a decent GPA. I finally quit my job but it’s way too late to salvage this semester. So now I just have to hope I can get on top of things over summer ‘cause I know this isn’t getting any easier. This was my first semester at BYU and I thought I was ready to dive in but for some reason I wasn’t. I think the main thing was the fact that there were a lot of changes that really bothered me that I had a difficult time overlooking and the terrible part is that they’re all things that everyone here loves (I’m a real advocate for the whole separation of church and state thing and the prospect of a religion course influencing my grade really bothered me no matter how easy anyone says those classes are). Another issue I had was budgeting my time. I didn’t put enough in my planner and it cost me.

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I ended up having to work both mornings on general conference weekend so the only full session that I saw was priesthood session and I saw the last half hour of Sunday afternoon. I had conference playing in the hearth room at the hotel I work at so whenever I wasn’t busy at the front desk, I would go, stand in the door way, and watch. This did make it difficult to actually follow what was being said but it was nice to feel the spirit during work.

My family was in town for conference so my dad, brother, and I all got to go to priesthood together.  This wonderful opportunity reminded me of the blessing of the priesthood. Since I have gotten married it has been a new responsibility of mine to be a priesthood leader in my home. Having this new responsibility has made me even more grateful for the opportunity I had to be raised in a home where there was a good priesthood bearer leading the family. 

0401

The only time I write these posts seems to be when I have given up on doing productive things so It’s probably a good thing that I have been way under quota. Then again, looking at my history, It’s not good that this is my fourth post this weekend (which entirely supports my earlier statement). This was a rough weekend and still is. Fortunately my wife returns tonight so some things will be better. I’ve just been putting a lot of thought into what I have been doing lately and what I need to change and while I still haven’t entirely reached a conclusion, I’ve realized that I’m going to have to change a lot. I’ll be starting with my job. I have finally concluded that not only is it entirely inconvenient, it is costing me way more time and emotional wellness than I can afford to sacrifice at this point. I’m sure changing jobs right now probably will upend a lot of things but I feel I need to do it if I want to excel in school. So I’m putting my feelers out now (if anyone has an in) I technically am still employed at two other places and one of those jobs will give me 12 hours per week I just would want one more shift if I could get it so hopefully I can get my fallback arranged before I take my plunge.